I have had the oddest experience over the last couple of weeks. It has brought home the notion that when we pay attention to the energy of an experience, we actually attune ourselves to the flow of life. It's probably the same thing as synchronicity. Meaningful coincidences, and all of that.
I have wanted nothing more than to move back to Portland, Oregon, to live near my family - especially my grandson. We are having a mutual love affair at the moment, and since I know these things never last, once he gets even slightly older, I haven't wanted to miss a moment. But the energy is simply not flowing.
The first realtor I called took all of my information and then never called me back! We had an extended conversation on what I was looking for, granted it changes with the wind, but that is normal for house hunting. Most Realtors are patient and helpful, guiding you to the homes that might meet your needs. Not this one - she just never called back.
So, in the meantime, I have been working on ideas for a shared-living-resources plan that would include my family. (You have to start somewhere.) Since we actually live in Nevada, we would only be there part of the time, allowing for my family to live in the house until we retire in a few years. Well, it seems that doesn't work because we have very different ideas on the part of town we want to live in. My children only want to live in the urban, bicycle riding, walk to pubs and restaurants part of town, and we crave a more serene and nature-filled part of town. Very different lifestyles.
Okay, fine. Next, we decided to just look for a home for my husband and myself, and if the children want to live in it, then fine - but if not, no problem, we'll just use the home while we are in Portland during our many visits, moving into it permanently when we retire. So I talk with our new realtor about the change in plans, my daughter talks with the realtor about the change in plans, I send him some new listings I would like him to check out for me and....he just never answers my email about the new listings! Just a short note to say we need to find a duplex that would work for an extended family, and then nothing! Just a great big VOID. I think he has bonded with my daughter and son-in-law, and if we are not buying something with them in mind - he's not interested. (Realtors must be doing much better in Portland than here in Reno/Tahoe...)
Bottom line? There is simply no energy in this endeavor at this time. For some reason, now is not the time to find a home in Portland. I've decided to listen, and have procured a very large storage unit for our upcoming move from the home we are in, and will wait for what's in store for us. I may feel disappointed, but I'm also sure there is some reason this wasn't going the way I thought it should go.
I'm kind of excited. Something else may be just around the corner.
Have you ever experienced a lack of energy flow? Did you listen, or did you fight it? What was the outcome?